Transvestia

I had known him for years. He was intelligent, well educated and really a swell chap, but our life only lasted thirteen months. He was killed in an aeroplane accident when my daughter was nine days old. But had he lived, it would not have worked out anyway. I will not go into intimate details because you readers are in- telligent enough to grasp the situation. He could love me as Tobi alright but not as Gisele. He loved to feel the muscles on my back, but could not stand to see my breasts. Can anyone figure out how I got the daughter I wanted in this kind of set-up? You can not guess, but as I said I get what I want. Normally I do not approve of violence but I got very furious about this situation and I beat him into submission not once but eight times. My short marriage really cleared the mystery for me and now I thank God everyday for knowing what I am. I have not lost the hope of rebuilding my life. Quite to the contrary, I have acquired maturity, understanding, com- plete freedom of expression, and peace of mind. These things are very important in our adult lives and these things I will share someday with the right person.

As things are right now I live alone with my daughter, she is a charming girl, and she understands transvestism perfectly. When I have had a chance to get away from the office for a few days I have taken her with me on my land and she has seen me chop down trees all by my- self, to clear up spaces for future summer camps so she knew then that I was Tobi and doing a man's job. When we are at home with our fancy aprons on and doing our cooking together then she knows that I am also Gisele, and she loves me as I am. My life is very simple, very quiet and also very lonesome at times, but it is better this way until the right person comes along.

I have stated here clearly my mistakes, my faults, and defects of character without hyporisy. It is only fair that I also mention the good side of my personality. I am sincere and loyal, and my integrity can not be questioned. I am easy to get along with and I love the out-doors, the sea and everything that is beautiful in creation. I am grateful for what I have, for what I am, and in all hon- esty I am looking forward to a better life with a person as equally sincere. This is my true story, with... по

regrets.